If only.............

Howdy..
Many a time we get the feeling of deja vu. That is the time when long lost memories are brought out and relived. Quite often, while thinking of something..... the first thing that hits our brain is.... If Only..... If Only I had not said so... or if only I had not done so.... or If Only I had said this and so on..... The list is long and boring.... the only common thing among all such thoughts is  If Only...... And that is something worth wasting a thought..... This if only syndrome is prevalent among people of both sexes.... It hasn't left anyone untouched...... So what is it that makes us do what we do in a situation and then why do we sit and think about this if only..... I personally feel that in a situation, many a time we r too shit scared to act in a certain way or say something and later to cover up for being a dud in the situation, we make use of this if only thingie.....  I have seen people paralysed with this if only syndrome when they spot a childhood sweetheart who is now happily engaged with someone better looking in the present tense...... All they can blurt out upon seeing all this is Aah!!! If only I had proposed to her/him long back... It would have been us today......  What the hell are they trying to hide behind this if only..... Either the fact that the person from the past is now with a partner who is a zillion times more good looking, better etc etc.... So this if only hides the jealousy.... or is it a real feeling.... that if only I had made my feelings known... we would have been together......  I would like to go with the first option..... It is the goddammed jealousy that we r tryin to hide.... Think of a lost career opportunity.... What reminds us about it..... It is someone else who has made it big in life by grabbing that opportunity that reminds us that we screwed up on it....
What do u all feel...... When do u get this if only syndrome.......... ;-)